my current state of mind - bit tired, feeling pretty good, i'm seeing her tomorrow, she wants to talk - serious talk, we've never spoken on a serious note in person before, all our serious conversations take place during our phone calls - funny that.

i was geared up to having drinks and good company tonight - but everyone's got their own agenda, everyone's busy these days, everyone's paving their own lives - why did i even mention this...

honestly, i crave attention, a lot of attention but in subtle ways - maybe it's just a manifestation of my insecurities - ok, enough of this crap.

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i'm staring off into space thinking about what to write about, i had a lot to write about today at work, i thought i'd leave it til i get home, now i don't know what's going on, finished work, headed down to the cargo bar to meet jemaine, then caught the train home with jemaine and brandan, headed over to brandan's place for some food, sat down with a nice cuppa tea and watched the knights vs broncos game - knights smashed them, 40 - 10.

i'm tired.

i have no substance.

i'm gonna read someone elses blog, maybe they've got something more interesting to say.