happy new year.
ahh so quickly has the year passed aye?!
Tuesday, November 19, 2002
Thursday, October 17, 2002
i was on the train home today, i eves dropped on two girls talking amongst themselves, i don't know, but i just thought it was hilarious when one of the girls said:
- work was alright, it was busy, it wasn't busy busy, yeah, it was quiet.
eh?
sometimes i just think girls talk for the sake of talking, sometimes they're just so caught up in themselves that don't make any damn sense.
it was approaching my station, and these two people, a guy and a girl said hello to each other, i think long time friends, they were talking, then the girl said, i swear this is word for word:
- i saw your friend the other day i forogt his name but he lives in cabramatta and he vietnamese (in her broken english)
surely that should narrow it down for the bloke she was talking to, anyways, she went on giving more detail, but i paid little attention, that first line was a pearler. Which brings me to my conclusion of this experience, which all happened in a 10 minute period. Girls love talking, they talk a lot, and when they talk, they talk incoherent shit.
this should yield a few comments!! yeahhhh!!!
- work was alright, it was busy, it wasn't busy busy, yeah, it was quiet.
eh?
sometimes i just think girls talk for the sake of talking, sometimes they're just so caught up in themselves that don't make any damn sense.
it was approaching my station, and these two people, a guy and a girl said hello to each other, i think long time friends, they were talking, then the girl said, i swear this is word for word:
- i saw your friend the other day i forogt his name but he lives in cabramatta and he vietnamese (in her broken english)
surely that should narrow it down for the bloke she was talking to, anyways, she went on giving more detail, but i paid little attention, that first line was a pearler. Which brings me to my conclusion of this experience, which all happened in a 10 minute period. Girls love talking, they talk a lot, and when they talk, they talk incoherent shit.
this should yield a few comments!! yeahhhh!!!
Sunday, October 13, 2002
quittage
i'm not a quitter by nature, but it's really gotten me to the point of complete and utter insanity, i was still pretty happy, up until friday night.
work just gave me the shits, all my mates have left from my team, the latest casualty, poor girl is gonna quit without a job to fall back onto, i might do the same tomorrow, i think it's the best thing for me, i know it's not the most wise thing, but it'll make me a lot, i mean A LOT happier, and that's what life's all about right?
oh how i miss those public school days, 9am - 3pm without a worry in the world.
i'm not a quitter by nature, but it's really gotten me to the point of complete and utter insanity, i was still pretty happy, up until friday night.
work just gave me the shits, all my mates have left from my team, the latest casualty, poor girl is gonna quit without a job to fall back onto, i might do the same tomorrow, i think it's the best thing for me, i know it's not the most wise thing, but it'll make me a lot, i mean A LOT happier, and that's what life's all about right?
oh how i miss those public school days, 9am - 3pm without a worry in the world.
Saturday, October 05, 2002
mango beer
- milo is a beast.
- mango beer isn't that bad, they serve it at lowenbrau, some german bar and restaurant at the rocks.
- at the moment, i'm talking to chook (milo's sister) on msn and writing up this blog entry at the same time.
- milo's a beast
- all the blokes downed a litre of beer in under 20 minutes, but it seemed to affect me more than anyone else, probably because i still had some alcohol left over in my system from last week.
- "knee" was dizzy after taking a sniff of the beer.
- marv and his constant asking of everyone to "wait wait wait wait wait wait" - whadda funny bastard.
- xtn always seems sober, no matter how much he's had.
- go the chilli fish balls, you bastards missed out, xtn and i rock.
- milo is definately a beast.
- jackson was rather quiet. NOT ENOUGH BEER.
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i had a story to write about, but i was warned that if i put on here, some serious pain is gonna come my way, i said i'll change the names and stuff, it was the moral behind the story. oh well.
all i can say is, "hope" is a powerful thing.
***
it's late, i don't have anything interesting to say, so i'm gonna go to bed now.
- milo is a beast.
- mango beer isn't that bad, they serve it at lowenbrau, some german bar and restaurant at the rocks.
- at the moment, i'm talking to chook (milo's sister) on msn and writing up this blog entry at the same time.
- milo's a beast
- all the blokes downed a litre of beer in under 20 minutes, but it seemed to affect me more than anyone else, probably because i still had some alcohol left over in my system from last week.
- "knee" was dizzy after taking a sniff of the beer.
- marv and his constant asking of everyone to "wait wait wait wait wait wait" - whadda funny bastard.
- xtn always seems sober, no matter how much he's had.
- go the chilli fish balls, you bastards missed out, xtn and i rock.
- milo is definately a beast.
- jackson was rather quiet. NOT ENOUGH BEER.
***
i had a story to write about, but i was warned that if i put on here, some serious pain is gonna come my way, i said i'll change the names and stuff, it was the moral behind the story. oh well.
all i can say is, "hope" is a powerful thing.
***
it's late, i don't have anything interesting to say, so i'm gonna go to bed now.
Wednesday, October 02, 2002
FOR ALL YOU dooshmas - i reposted my posts below - don't say i didn't warn you how crap it is.
[8/29/2002 1:37:54 PM | u e]
it was the twenty fourth day of the eigth month... five days earlier...
it's quarter past twelve - i said farewell to my friend and made my way to her house, i called her, i said i'll be there soon, she said cool.
i arrived at her place shortly after, open up my boot and pulled out the bouquet of hi-lighters i had arranged earlier in the day - she came out and before any words were spoken her eyes lit up from the sight of the hi-lighters - we left it at her front door and continued on our merry way.
i didn't know where we were going, she directed me, turn right here, go to the end of the street, then left, go straight past the lights and make a left - we finally got to where she intended on taking me - now find parking she said - so i did.
we found our lunch spot - laos/thai - we ordered a couple of dishes enjoyed the cosy atmosphere the store had provided, there wasn't many people there, nervous at first, but it got comfortable by the second.
she said that this was the first of three destinations - i said you're not gonna drag me out to some desert and before i know shoot me in the back are you? - she said there aren't any deserts around here - and laughed it off...
we finished most of the food and she insisted on paying - and she did, grabbed our after meal mints (minties) and walked around the block to see if there was anything interesting to see - we found a cheap cd store, the signs were made of cheap cardboard written in poor handwriting... regardless, we ventured into the store, she ended up buying a cd - atomic kitten - their latest single (as at twenty four / eight / zero two)
we made our way back to the car conversing about meaningless nothing - nothing important enough for me to remember...
started the engine and we were off again, she guided me to the next destination, 15 minutes later we ended up at a recreational park, families having a nice saturday afternoon barbeque, men, women and children pushing their canoes into the lake just before paddling off into the distance.
after walking around for ten minutes we found ourselves a nice patch of grass, sat down and soaked up some sun rays, it was a good day. she had an objective that day, she had something tell me, from our previous conversations i've deducted that it was going to be good news.
she started : i brought you out here to tell you something - yes? but you're hiding behind your sunnies, i can't see your eyes - you want to see my eyes? - yes.
she pulled her sunnies off and dropped them onto the soft grass we were laying on, she was laying on her stomach, before she continued she uttered - my arse is burning - i said, sit up then, and make me some shade - we laughed that off as well and she continued with what she had to tell me.
it was good news, but it wasn't what i was hoping for, i was content, very content, in fact after telling what i had said six days earlier, which was a first in the entirety of my life.
she had partially reciprocated what i had told her, but there was a 'but' - it wasn't a bad 'but' where you'd expect a total opposing point to the initial statement, it was more of a compromising 'but' .
we soaked up some more sun rays got up, brushed our backsides to rid the grass that attached themselves to our jeans when we were least expected - walked to the car and continued to our third destination.
i just wanted to write about the first two thirds of the day, it was a defining day, cleared out most of the cob webs that hung over me for the last week.
i just want to say, let me know whenever you're comfortable.
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[8/25/2002 1:41:29 AM | u e]
i didn't intend on writing, but ...... nevermind ....
something unusual happened today, i picked her up at quarter past twelve today, i gave her the bouquet of hi-lighters i got from work, she was taken back by how many i got her.
- thai for lunch
- park for a talk
- country fair aka paddy's market for the rest of the day
it was good, it was different, it got me thinking, she says she likes me, but she doesn't want to rush into things, i didn't know what to say, i'm obviously happy...
i'm just so run down at the moment that i haven't taken the time out to think about what's going to happen in the next few weeks, i really don't know.
i'll post something in more detail later
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[8/24/2002 12:23:48 AM | u e]
my current state of mind - bit tired, feeling pretty good, i'm seeing her tomorrow, she wants to talk - serious talk, we've never spoken on a serious note in person before, all our serious conversations take place during our phone calls - funny that.
i was geared up to having drinks and good company tonight - but everyone's got their own agenda, everyone's busy these days, everyone's paving their own lives - why did i even mention this...
honestly, i crave attention, a lot of attention but in subtle ways - maybe it's just a manifestation of my insecurities - ok, enough of this crap.
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i'm staring off into space thinking about what to write about, i had a lot to write about today at work, i thought i'd leave it til i get home, now i don't know what's going on, finished work, headed down to the cargo bar to meet jemaine, then caught the train home with jemaine and brandan, headed over to brandan's place for some food, sat down with a nice cuppa tea and watched the knights vs broncos game - knights smashed them, 40 - 10.
i'm tired.
i have no substance.
i'm gonna read someone elses blog, maybe they've got something more interesting to say.
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[8/21/2002 12:08:04 AM | u e]
i could take a shower and goto sleep, but i wanted to write more about myself, hmmm - talking about myself twice in one night too much? nah, i don't do it all that often, and there's no harm, unless people who know me read this, and they know this blogger belongs to me - but WHATEVER, i have great friends, i'm sure they won't pass judgement based on what i write here...
i'm insecure at times, and it shows, i talk about my feelings alot and more often than not there's no resolve, "circular conversation" is the term i use loosely.
i adapt and apply other people's concepts to my life, i make a conscious effort to listen to my thoughts when i have second to myself, mostly during lunch, i usually have it by myself, cos nobody else has lunch at 3pm - i'm doing very tedious accounting work at a bank that doesn't value their staff, i try hard, i put a lot of effort in my work, i try to keep people happy, people in my immediate area anyway. i'm normally a pretty up tempo, cheerful happy person, it's only of late that i'm in this 'gloom' mood. mostly cos of the direction, or lack thereof, my career is going, then little 'obstacles' in my personal life.
i usually write in small short sentences, it makes you sound more sophisticated, but there's no one here i want to impress - so that who idea can just go out the window.
i'm tired, i ought to jump into bed and get some rest - but i want to still write - about nothing and mostly myself.
we have a small family here in sydney, we moved from adelaide in '86 - i have a few aunts and uncles in sydney - they have lots of kids now - they're my little cousins - there are lots of them - they're like a plague - that's an awful word, an awful word to describe my cousins with, but they're still very young, they will never find this journal, they're annoying though, that's why they're a plague.
someone just pulled up on our drive way - best bet it's one of my aunts/uncles - i can just make out their head lights through my shutters - they left - they dropped my mum off.
i was at a birthday party earlier in the evening - it was an old lady - an old lady i call grandma - she's not exactly my grandma, but everyone calls her that, because she's old, she's really old - close to 80 i reckon. i feel rather guilty, my parents asked me to go - i went to have some food, spoke to a few people and headed back home - the party was a 2 minute drive from my place, i don't feel so guilty anymore, i'm so tired i couldn't really give a toss.
i think my sentences are too long, but no body cares, i use a lot of commas though, that should make up for it? i don't think so, bad grammar is bad grammar - i did mention that i was a poor writer - you can see why.
there are a few good things i can say about myself though, i can safely say i'm pretty good in many sporting activities. basketball, tennis *thinking* pool, pretty strong swimmer and i can run pretty well.
my room's in a mess at the moment, my study table is packed with miscellaneous items:
- water spray
- 1 litre tub of moisturising cream
- a bouquet of hi-lighters
- 4 post it note pads stacked on top of the hi-lighters
- 3 books (fellowship of the ring & the two towers) an interior design book.
- 2 cans of deoderant
i'm a collector of crap - my book shelf doesn't have many books, there's an assortment of display items, some cologne, candles, a tray of crap.
wow - an entry of crap - i went off track again - i need to focus, i wanted to write about myself, ended up listing the things on my desk and bookshelf.
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[8/20/2002 10:34:59 PM | u e]
today, i realised the true meaning of the word "routine", as it stands, my
life is like "ground hog day" playing on repeat mode.
i have lunch almost exactly the same time, walk through the same malls, on most days, i have the same lunch, only because everything else is rather unhealthy and after lunch, i go window shopping in exactly the same stores.
i struggle to remember what goes through my head during my lunches, it's the only time i have to myself.
i'm off in a daze when i'm strolling through GBs.
i want to buy that dvd, but when would i watch it?
i'm wearing my suit, i feel rather confident, my light blue shirt and my somewhat checkered tie. i glance at people as if they are below me, that's not true though.
i search for a gift, for a friend, she's turning 24. i see a filofax, it's in a glass cabinet, i can't see the price, but i know it's pricey, it's brown, leather, some parts suede.
i won't buy it today, perhaps tomorrow, i said that yesterday as well.
it's nearly 3:30, i make my way back to the office, as i approach the front door i see chris, he's going to get some food, gee - that's a late lunch, no - i was wrong, he went to the gym during his lunch hour, he just needs some food now, fair enough.
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i sip my low fat milk, i'm lactose intolerant, i like milk, it's low fat, but not skim, skim is kinda gross.
lactose intolerant, i'm not certain though, but my stomach makes alien like noises after drinking - i guess that's what lactose intolerance means, i'm probably wrong again, sometimes when i drink too much i need to use the bathroom.
i want to glorify myself, i thinner now, but i don't have abs, all of a sudden i don't have anything to write about, i could have said the same thing at the beginning of this entry, did i spell beginning right? hope so, i did, i just ran a spell check on it, i think faster than i type, that's why i'm never a good writer, it sounds right in my head, but when i translate what goes on in my head through my fingertips and onto this computer screen, a lot of it is just plain gibberish.
i just remembered i owe my friend $110 - i haven't forgotten, i ought to pay him back, i don't have music playing either, i usually do.
i want to talk more about myself, but i don't know where to start, i'm sure i have a lot to say about myself, i'm sure i'm the best person to ask about myself, don't you think?
five for fighting's superman is playing at the moment.
my friend's sister's friend just messaged me on msn - i'm going to say hello.
this is the end of my entry. more about myself in my next post
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[8/19/2002 10:08:58 PM | u e]
i was never a good writer.
no writing skills whatsoever, i'm asian who happens to speak english quite well.
i read other people's blog
i should read some more, it might help.
i'm going to make a banner for the top of my blogger now - i know it's gonna turn out rather crap.
i don't know why i even bothered setting up a comments link - no one comes here.
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[8/10/2002 2:38:21 AM | u e]
milo's poem of the moment
Desiderata
(something desired as essential)
Go placidly amid the noise and the haste, and remember
what peace there may be in silence.
As far as possible, without surrender, be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to the dull and ignorant; they too have their story.
Avoid loud and aggressive persons; they are vexations to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain or bitter,
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.
Keep interested in your career, however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
Exercise caution in your business affairs, for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals and everywhere life is full of heroism.
Be yourself. Especially do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love; for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment,
it is as perennial as the grass.
Take kindly the counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.
Beyond a wholesome discipline be gentle to yourself.
You are a child of the universe,
no less than the trees and the stars and you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.
Therefore, be at peace with God, whatever you conceive Him to be.
And whatever your labors and aspirations,
in the noisy confusion of life, keep peace with your soul.
With all its sham, drudgery and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful. Strive to be happy.
--Max Ehrmann, 1927. © Robert L. Bell
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[8/10/2002 2:25:02 AM | u e]
it's been awhile
many things have happened
one thing in particular i'm very happy about
manager's still a dick though
he's on 3 weeks leave
so now i can go hammer and tongs looking for a new job.
sweet as.
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[6/28/2002 2:13:30 PM | u e]
i took a personality test over at http://www.haleonline.com/psych/index.htm it's only 4 questions long - most parts are quite true, i don't know, judge for yourself.
here's mine anyways:
ENFP
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What's there to say about you? You're an initiator of change and are keenly in tune to possibilities... you're enthusiastic, and it's contagious...you're tireless in the pursuit of newfound interests... You can anticipate the needs of others, and offer them needed help and appreciation. You bring zest, livelihood, and fun to all aspects of your life...
You're agreeable, sociable, outgoing and like to imagine yourself in the future... who will you marry? what type of work will you do? where will you live? All questions you ask yourself...you like to keep your options open...you're imaginative...curious...you prefer to understand than judge..
You see endless possibilities. You hate to be boxed into anything -- like a career -- for life...so you hesitate and resist making decisions...always look for new and novel...
You like a learning environment where the teacher takes a personal interest in you...You're motto might be: "There's always a better way or a better answer.."... when you're committed to something, you are enthusiastic to the point of preaching to the whole world about it (...like the Storm Palace?)
Your style of organization is... well, personalized. Others don't really see you as organized, though, do they? YOU know what's where, and there's a "method to your madness," huh?
You have a hard time separating work from leisure, since you have fun while you work. You're always on the lookout for new things... you like learning with others, so you'll invite 'em to join you at films, plays and classes.
When you fall in love, you study the other person in every way. The one you fall in love with is "the best ever" a lot, huh? Sheesh. But others feel unconditionally loved by you ....you fall head over heels and get in love FAST. You are charming...full of vitality...you treat others with sympathy, gentleness, and warmth...
Last part: watch out for losing your focus 'cause you wanna try too many ideas at the same time... you don't prioritize, so you can overload...also, because you're just a fun-loving animal, you might not complete important work and basic responsibilities...
ENFP: "Every day, New Fantastic Possibilities"
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[6/23/2002 12:13:45 AM | u e]
went to the blue mountains last weekend - very cold - cosy little cottage - 4 hr bush walk - that was kinda screwy but very relaxing.
anthony spat on my face using the force of the wind - bastard.
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[5/31/2002 11:55:07 PM | u e]
it's friday night, it's cold and i have absolutely nothing to do, nowhere to go and no-one to call =( got bored of the click-click game aka diablo2 and ra3 got boring after 20 minutes of it.
*sigh* what am i to do? it's only 10:40!! =((((
call someone? bring over a video? catch up?
i just remembered why a part of me chose to stay home, car regos coming up + insurance - fucken hell!!!
<--- in other news -->
i just realised how old i'm getting when my friends got engaged the other week, i can just feel the wrinkles forming around my eyes, not good, and i don't want to end up choosing a bride in a south east asian country.
one more thing - i'm sure this comes up all the time - it annoys me a lot but i don't mind people with high self confidence, but when it gets to a stage where it's painfully obvious that it makes them look like they're up themselves....bleh!! fags aghghaghahgahaghgaha
[8/29/2002 1:37:54 PM | u e]
it was the twenty fourth day of the eigth month... five days earlier...
it's quarter past twelve - i said farewell to my friend and made my way to her house, i called her, i said i'll be there soon, she said cool.
i arrived at her place shortly after, open up my boot and pulled out the bouquet of hi-lighters i had arranged earlier in the day - she came out and before any words were spoken her eyes lit up from the sight of the hi-lighters - we left it at her front door and continued on our merry way.
i didn't know where we were going, she directed me, turn right here, go to the end of the street, then left, go straight past the lights and make a left - we finally got to where she intended on taking me - now find parking she said - so i did.
we found our lunch spot - laos/thai - we ordered a couple of dishes enjoyed the cosy atmosphere the store had provided, there wasn't many people there, nervous at first, but it got comfortable by the second.
she said that this was the first of three destinations - i said you're not gonna drag me out to some desert and before i know shoot me in the back are you? - she said there aren't any deserts around here - and laughed it off...
we finished most of the food and she insisted on paying - and she did, grabbed our after meal mints (minties) and walked around the block to see if there was anything interesting to see - we found a cheap cd store, the signs were made of cheap cardboard written in poor handwriting... regardless, we ventured into the store, she ended up buying a cd - atomic kitten - their latest single (as at twenty four / eight / zero two)
we made our way back to the car conversing about meaningless nothing - nothing important enough for me to remember...
started the engine and we were off again, she guided me to the next destination, 15 minutes later we ended up at a recreational park, families having a nice saturday afternoon barbeque, men, women and children pushing their canoes into the lake just before paddling off into the distance.
after walking around for ten minutes we found ourselves a nice patch of grass, sat down and soaked up some sun rays, it was a good day. she had an objective that day, she had something tell me, from our previous conversations i've deducted that it was going to be good news.
she started : i brought you out here to tell you something - yes? but you're hiding behind your sunnies, i can't see your eyes - you want to see my eyes? - yes.
she pulled her sunnies off and dropped them onto the soft grass we were laying on, she was laying on her stomach, before she continued she uttered - my arse is burning - i said, sit up then, and make me some shade - we laughed that off as well and she continued with what she had to tell me.
it was good news, but it wasn't what i was hoping for, i was content, very content, in fact after telling what i had said six days earlier, which was a first in the entirety of my life.
she had partially reciprocated what i had told her, but there was a 'but' - it wasn't a bad 'but' where you'd expect a total opposing point to the initial statement, it was more of a compromising 'but' .
we soaked up some more sun rays got up, brushed our backsides to rid the grass that attached themselves to our jeans when we were least expected - walked to the car and continued to our third destination.
i just wanted to write about the first two thirds of the day, it was a defining day, cleared out most of the cob webs that hung over me for the last week.
i just want to say, let me know whenever you're comfortable.
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[8/25/2002 1:41:29 AM | u e]
i didn't intend on writing, but ...... nevermind ....
something unusual happened today, i picked her up at quarter past twelve today, i gave her the bouquet of hi-lighters i got from work, she was taken back by how many i got her.
- thai for lunch
- park for a talk
- country fair aka paddy's market for the rest of the day
it was good, it was different, it got me thinking, she says she likes me, but she doesn't want to rush into things, i didn't know what to say, i'm obviously happy...
i'm just so run down at the moment that i haven't taken the time out to think about what's going to happen in the next few weeks, i really don't know.
i'll post something in more detail later
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[8/24/2002 12:23:48 AM | u e]
my current state of mind - bit tired, feeling pretty good, i'm seeing her tomorrow, she wants to talk - serious talk, we've never spoken on a serious note in person before, all our serious conversations take place during our phone calls - funny that.
i was geared up to having drinks and good company tonight - but everyone's got their own agenda, everyone's busy these days, everyone's paving their own lives - why did i even mention this...
honestly, i crave attention, a lot of attention but in subtle ways - maybe it's just a manifestation of my insecurities - ok, enough of this crap.
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i'm staring off into space thinking about what to write about, i had a lot to write about today at work, i thought i'd leave it til i get home, now i don't know what's going on, finished work, headed down to the cargo bar to meet jemaine, then caught the train home with jemaine and brandan, headed over to brandan's place for some food, sat down with a nice cuppa tea and watched the knights vs broncos game - knights smashed them, 40 - 10.
i'm tired.
i have no substance.
i'm gonna read someone elses blog, maybe they've got something more interesting to say.
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[8/21/2002 12:08:04 AM | u e]
i could take a shower and goto sleep, but i wanted to write more about myself, hmmm - talking about myself twice in one night too much? nah, i don't do it all that often, and there's no harm, unless people who know me read this, and they know this blogger belongs to me - but WHATEVER, i have great friends, i'm sure they won't pass judgement based on what i write here...
i'm insecure at times, and it shows, i talk about my feelings alot and more often than not there's no resolve, "circular conversation" is the term i use loosely.
i adapt and apply other people's concepts to my life, i make a conscious effort to listen to my thoughts when i have second to myself, mostly during lunch, i usually have it by myself, cos nobody else has lunch at 3pm - i'm doing very tedious accounting work at a bank that doesn't value their staff, i try hard, i put a lot of effort in my work, i try to keep people happy, people in my immediate area anyway. i'm normally a pretty up tempo, cheerful happy person, it's only of late that i'm in this 'gloom' mood. mostly cos of the direction, or lack thereof, my career is going, then little 'obstacles' in my personal life.
i usually write in small short sentences, it makes you sound more sophisticated, but there's no one here i want to impress - so that who idea can just go out the window.
i'm tired, i ought to jump into bed and get some rest - but i want to still write - about nothing and mostly myself.
we have a small family here in sydney, we moved from adelaide in '86 - i have a few aunts and uncles in sydney - they have lots of kids now - they're my little cousins - there are lots of them - they're like a plague - that's an awful word, an awful word to describe my cousins with, but they're still very young, they will never find this journal, they're annoying though, that's why they're a plague.
someone just pulled up on our drive way - best bet it's one of my aunts/uncles - i can just make out their head lights through my shutters - they left - they dropped my mum off.
i was at a birthday party earlier in the evening - it was an old lady - an old lady i call grandma - she's not exactly my grandma, but everyone calls her that, because she's old, she's really old - close to 80 i reckon. i feel rather guilty, my parents asked me to go - i went to have some food, spoke to a few people and headed back home - the party was a 2 minute drive from my place, i don't feel so guilty anymore, i'm so tired i couldn't really give a toss.
i think my sentences are too long, but no body cares, i use a lot of commas though, that should make up for it? i don't think so, bad grammar is bad grammar - i did mention that i was a poor writer - you can see why.
there are a few good things i can say about myself though, i can safely say i'm pretty good in many sporting activities. basketball, tennis *thinking* pool, pretty strong swimmer and i can run pretty well.
my room's in a mess at the moment, my study table is packed with miscellaneous items:
- water spray
- 1 litre tub of moisturising cream
- a bouquet of hi-lighters
- 4 post it note pads stacked on top of the hi-lighters
- 3 books (fellowship of the ring & the two towers) an interior design book.
- 2 cans of deoderant
i'm a collector of crap - my book shelf doesn't have many books, there's an assortment of display items, some cologne, candles, a tray of crap.
wow - an entry of crap - i went off track again - i need to focus, i wanted to write about myself, ended up listing the things on my desk and bookshelf.
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[8/20/2002 10:34:59 PM | u e]
today, i realised the true meaning of the word "routine", as it stands, my
life is like "ground hog day" playing on repeat mode.
i have lunch almost exactly the same time, walk through the same malls, on most days, i have the same lunch, only because everything else is rather unhealthy and after lunch, i go window shopping in exactly the same stores.
i struggle to remember what goes through my head during my lunches, it's the only time i have to myself.
i'm off in a daze when i'm strolling through GBs.
i want to buy that dvd, but when would i watch it?
i'm wearing my suit, i feel rather confident, my light blue shirt and my somewhat checkered tie. i glance at people as if they are below me, that's not true though.
i search for a gift, for a friend, she's turning 24. i see a filofax, it's in a glass cabinet, i can't see the price, but i know it's pricey, it's brown, leather, some parts suede.
i won't buy it today, perhaps tomorrow, i said that yesterday as well.
it's nearly 3:30, i make my way back to the office, as i approach the front door i see chris, he's going to get some food, gee - that's a late lunch, no - i was wrong, he went to the gym during his lunch hour, he just needs some food now, fair enough.
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i sip my low fat milk, i'm lactose intolerant, i like milk, it's low fat, but not skim, skim is kinda gross.
lactose intolerant, i'm not certain though, but my stomach makes alien like noises after drinking - i guess that's what lactose intolerance means, i'm probably wrong again, sometimes when i drink too much i need to use the bathroom.
i want to glorify myself, i thinner now, but i don't have abs, all of a sudden i don't have anything to write about, i could have said the same thing at the beginning of this entry, did i spell beginning right? hope so, i did, i just ran a spell check on it, i think faster than i type, that's why i'm never a good writer, it sounds right in my head, but when i translate what goes on in my head through my fingertips and onto this computer screen, a lot of it is just plain gibberish.
i just remembered i owe my friend $110 - i haven't forgotten, i ought to pay him back, i don't have music playing either, i usually do.
i want to talk more about myself, but i don't know where to start, i'm sure i have a lot to say about myself, i'm sure i'm the best person to ask about myself, don't you think?
five for fighting's superman is playing at the moment.
my friend's sister's friend just messaged me on msn - i'm going to say hello.
this is the end of my entry. more about myself in my next post
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[8/19/2002 10:08:58 PM | u e]
i was never a good writer.
no writing skills whatsoever, i'm asian who happens to speak english quite well.
i read other people's blog
i should read some more, it might help.
i'm going to make a banner for the top of my blogger now - i know it's gonna turn out rather crap.
i don't know why i even bothered setting up a comments link - no one comes here.
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[8/10/2002 2:38:21 AM | u e]
milo's poem of the moment
Desiderata
(something desired as essential)
Go placidly amid the noise and the haste, and remember
what peace there may be in silence.
As far as possible, without surrender, be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to the dull and ignorant; they too have their story.
Avoid loud and aggressive persons; they are vexations to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain or bitter,
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.
Keep interested in your career, however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
Exercise caution in your business affairs, for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals and everywhere life is full of heroism.
Be yourself. Especially do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love; for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment,
it is as perennial as the grass.
Take kindly the counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.
Beyond a wholesome discipline be gentle to yourself.
You are a child of the universe,
no less than the trees and the stars and you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.
Therefore, be at peace with God, whatever you conceive Him to be.
And whatever your labors and aspirations,
in the noisy confusion of life, keep peace with your soul.
With all its sham, drudgery and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful. Strive to be happy.
--Max Ehrmann, 1927. © Robert L. Bell
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[8/10/2002 2:25:02 AM | u e]
it's been awhile
many things have happened
one thing in particular i'm very happy about
manager's still a dick though
he's on 3 weeks leave
so now i can go hammer and tongs looking for a new job.
sweet as.
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[6/28/2002 2:13:30 PM | u e]
i took a personality test over at http://www.haleonline.com/psych/index.htm it's only 4 questions long - most parts are quite true, i don't know, judge for yourself.
here's mine anyways:
ENFP
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What's there to say about you? You're an initiator of change and are keenly in tune to possibilities... you're enthusiastic, and it's contagious...you're tireless in the pursuit of newfound interests... You can anticipate the needs of others, and offer them needed help and appreciation. You bring zest, livelihood, and fun to all aspects of your life...
You're agreeable, sociable, outgoing and like to imagine yourself in the future... who will you marry? what type of work will you do? where will you live? All questions you ask yourself...you like to keep your options open...you're imaginative...curious...you prefer to understand than judge..
You see endless possibilities. You hate to be boxed into anything -- like a career -- for life...so you hesitate and resist making decisions...always look for new and novel...
You like a learning environment where the teacher takes a personal interest in you...You're motto might be: "There's always a better way or a better answer.."... when you're committed to something, you are enthusiastic to the point of preaching to the whole world about it (...like the Storm Palace?)
Your style of organization is... well, personalized. Others don't really see you as organized, though, do they? YOU know what's where, and there's a "method to your madness," huh?
You have a hard time separating work from leisure, since you have fun while you work. You're always on the lookout for new things... you like learning with others, so you'll invite 'em to join you at films, plays and classes.
When you fall in love, you study the other person in every way. The one you fall in love with is "the best ever" a lot, huh? Sheesh. But others feel unconditionally loved by you ....you fall head over heels and get in love FAST. You are charming...full of vitality...you treat others with sympathy, gentleness, and warmth...
Last part: watch out for losing your focus 'cause you wanna try too many ideas at the same time... you don't prioritize, so you can overload...also, because you're just a fun-loving animal, you might not complete important work and basic responsibilities...
ENFP: "Every day, New Fantastic Possibilities"
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[6/23/2002 12:13:45 AM | u e]
went to the blue mountains last weekend - very cold - cosy little cottage - 4 hr bush walk - that was kinda screwy but very relaxing.
anthony spat on my face using the force of the wind - bastard.
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[5/31/2002 11:55:07 PM | u e]
it's friday night, it's cold and i have absolutely nothing to do, nowhere to go and no-one to call =( got bored of the click-click game aka diablo2 and ra3 got boring after 20 minutes of it.
*sigh* what am i to do? it's only 10:40!! =((((
call someone? bring over a video? catch up?
i just remembered why a part of me chose to stay home, car regos coming up + insurance - fucken hell!!!
<--- in other news -->
i just realised how old i'm getting when my friends got engaged the other week, i can just feel the wrinkles forming around my eyes, not good, and i don't want to end up choosing a bride in a south east asian country.
one more thing - i'm sure this comes up all the time - it annoys me a lot but i don't mind people with high self confidence, but when it gets to a stage where it's painfully obvious that it makes them look like they're up themselves....bleh!! fags aghghaghahgahaghgaha
Saturday, September 28, 2002
never again...
my body clock forced me to wake up pretty early today, backing up from what i consider a big night on the booze.
my head feels like crap and my conscience ridden with guilt of making such of fool out of myself as well as partially ruining everyone's night.
my apologies go out to the 4 brave souls who had to baby sit me through the latter part of the evening.
jackson, xtn, gillian and marv
particularly jackson, thanks mate.
oh yeah xtn, i'll pay you soon for kok - and don't say otherwise FOOL!! =)
hi MILO, hope your hand bag is ok.
my pinky still hurts.
my body clock forced me to wake up pretty early today, backing up from what i consider a big night on the booze.
my head feels like crap and my conscience ridden with guilt of making such of fool out of myself as well as partially ruining everyone's night.
my apologies go out to the 4 brave souls who had to baby sit me through the latter part of the evening.
jackson, xtn, gillian and marv
particularly jackson, thanks mate.
oh yeah xtn, i'll pay you soon for kok - and don't say otherwise FOOL!! =)
hi MILO, hope your hand bag is ok.
my pinky still hurts.
Tuesday, September 24, 2002
you left me no choice...
but to write up an entry about the hunter valley of my own...
both mark and xtn have added an entry about the hunter valley trip - so i'm gonna make like a sheep and do the same... *baaa* *baaa*
on second thoughts, i'm just too darn lazy at the moment...
besides, everything's been written about by the two blokes i've just mentioned, go...have a read...and perhaps by then i'd do a proper write up, i doubt it though.
this chill-out-mellow-trancey music i'm listening to at the moment is making me more of a lazy arse.
oh yeah, mark, great song.
oh yeah, mark, YOU BRUISED THAT BANANA YA SLACKO!! go get yourself a "clingon" and you can make 'jackson' pay for it this time, and and and STOP USING OUR BOX OF TISSUES!! =)
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just thinking about work - i'm getting all fired up...arghh!!! now i must write...
i'm just dreading work everyday now, another of my colleagues spoke to me today, she's definately resigning this thursday and.....WITHOUT A JOB to fall back onto.
team morale is at an all time low.
i've been so close to resigning just like that, storming out the door vowing never to return, but i'm all talk, i'm more afraid that my dad will threaten to break my leg, it's the same old threats asian parents seem to be using, ever since i can remember, it's the "i'll break your leg" threat that reigned supreme - oh i'm off on a tangent now...
ok, a little less conversation and a bit more pro-active action.
it's about time i made use of that "need a job?" link i've put here.
ohh my dicky manager has now left, only to replaced by another dicky manager of the opposite sex and weighs 40 kg more. i'm slack, but i don't like her much, i'm a very tolerant person, i am!! just not with her.
feel my pain!
didja feel it?
ok, i'm better now.
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oh yeah, i've republished most of my archives, should be back up, don't know why it's not up straight away, but you guys should see it soon.
but to write up an entry about the hunter valley of my own...
both mark and xtn have added an entry about the hunter valley trip - so i'm gonna make like a sheep and do the same... *baaa* *baaa*
on second thoughts, i'm just too darn lazy at the moment...
besides, everything's been written about by the two blokes i've just mentioned, go...have a read...and perhaps by then i'd do a proper write up, i doubt it though.
this chill-out-mellow-trancey music i'm listening to at the moment is making me more of a lazy arse.
oh yeah, mark, great song.
oh yeah, mark, YOU BRUISED THAT BANANA YA SLACKO!! go get yourself a "clingon" and you can make 'jackson' pay for it this time, and and and STOP USING OUR BOX OF TISSUES!! =)
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just thinking about work - i'm getting all fired up...arghh!!! now i must write...
i'm just dreading work everyday now, another of my colleagues spoke to me today, she's definately resigning this thursday and.....WITHOUT A JOB to fall back onto.
team morale is at an all time low.
i've been so close to resigning just like that, storming out the door vowing never to return, but i'm all talk, i'm more afraid that my dad will threaten to break my leg, it's the same old threats asian parents seem to be using, ever since i can remember, it's the "i'll break your leg" threat that reigned supreme - oh i'm off on a tangent now...
ok, a little less conversation and a bit more pro-active action.
it's about time i made use of that "need a job?" link i've put here.
ohh my dicky manager has now left, only to replaced by another dicky manager of the opposite sex and weighs 40 kg more. i'm slack, but i don't like her much, i'm a very tolerant person, i am!! just not with her.
feel my pain!
didja feel it?
ok, i'm better now.
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oh yeah, i've republished most of my archives, should be back up, don't know why it's not up straight away, but you guys should see it soon.
Monday, September 23, 2002
Tuesday, September 17, 2002
email from a friend
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Remember the five simple rules to be happy (I like
#3,4 & 5):
1. Free your heart from hatred.
2. Free your mind from worries.
3. Live simply.
4. Give more .
5. Expect less.
Okay now for those who need a little soul
food remember these lines:
You can't make someone love you, all you can do is
be someone who can be loved, the rest is up to the
person to realize your worth.
It's better to lose your pride to the one you love,
than to lose the one you love because of pride.
We spend too much time looking for the right
person to love or finding fault with those we already
love, when instead we should be perfecting the love we
give.
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Remember the five simple rules to be happy (I like
#3,4 & 5):
1. Free your heart from hatred.
2. Free your mind from worries.
3. Live simply.
4. Give more .
5. Expect less.
Okay now for those who need a little soul
food remember these lines:
You can't make someone love you, all you can do is
be someone who can be loved, the rest is up to the
person to realize your worth.
It's better to lose your pride to the one you love,
than to lose the one you love because of pride.
We spend too much time looking for the right
person to love or finding fault with those we already
love, when instead we should be perfecting the love we
give.
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Friday, September 13, 2002
what a disaster
it's the feeling you get when your plans don't go as planned.
sure i still had a good time tonight, but my original plan was - be home around 7 - gym it til about 8 then call her and speak to her til the cows come home about meaningless nothing.
hmm what did i actually do?
finish work
headed down to the roxbury bar had a few drinks
went to a korean restaurant an ex-work mate parents' owned
had more wine, walked down a couple of blocks after dinner to a colleagues apartment for a few more beers then eventually waving down a cab and staggering home at 12 midnight on a weekday.
wrote up this blog entry... i'm guessing i'll eventually fall asleep within the hour...
now i have work to look forward to tomorrow morning... not happy jan.
it's the feeling you get when your plans don't go as planned.
sure i still had a good time tonight, but my original plan was - be home around 7 - gym it til about 8 then call her and speak to her til the cows come home about meaningless nothing.
hmm what did i actually do?
finish work
headed down to the roxbury bar had a few drinks
went to a korean restaurant an ex-work mate parents' owned
had more wine, walked down a couple of blocks after dinner to a colleagues apartment for a few more beers then eventually waving down a cab and staggering home at 12 midnight on a weekday.
wrote up this blog entry... i'm guessing i'll eventually fall asleep within the hour...
now i have work to look forward to tomorrow morning... not happy jan.
Thursday, September 12, 2002
from an email i was sent today
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September the Eleventh
In these awful times, as we struggle to understand what is happening to our world, we must keep in mind the events of the recent past.
At dawn on September the eleventh he received his orders.
While others would attack the citadels of commerce and defence
To his team would go the greatest honour,
That of targeting the President himself.
They would attack by air the central symbol of the Infidel's power
- The Presidential Palace -
And they would take out this obscene man
And all who stood by him.
'Democracy' the infidels called it.
Let them call it thus
And carp at the virtue of 'elections'.
Elections were fallible.
And now things had to be put right.
He had chosen his team well.
While others might quake at the magnitude
Of their mission, they would not flinch.
They boarded the aircraft carrying with them the hopes of all true
believers.
They had the support, too, of powerful friends abroad,
Of a courageous foreign government that supported their cause,
Equipped them, trained them, and put up cash.
And when victory was won and the revolution complete
It would recognise them, and give them honour.
To it, too, must go the glory.
The plan was meticulous.
His destiny - and that of his colleagues - was in his own hands.
Flying low, he turned the aircraft towards the capital
And prayed his aim would be true.
* * *
The attack succeeded.
The President, given warning by developments elsewhere,
Chose to stay in his residence and dared them do their worst.
He was dead by evening. His regime - like his palace - rubble
around
him.
He made a final broadcast to the nation. Here is part of what he
said:
"This is surely the last opportunity I will have to address you...
With my life I will pay for defending the principles
Dear to our nation.these are my last words".
And so they were. On September 11 1973
Salvador Allende, President of Chile died,
Refusing to flee an air attack on the Presidential Palace.
His murderers, a military putsch supported by the government of the
United States,
Overthrew the democratically-elected government
And established a rein of terror that saw thousands murdered.
Thus did the date September 11
First associate terror with the United States.
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September the Eleventh
In these awful times, as we struggle to understand what is happening to our world, we must keep in mind the events of the recent past.
At dawn on September the eleventh he received his orders.
While others would attack the citadels of commerce and defence
To his team would go the greatest honour,
That of targeting the President himself.
They would attack by air the central symbol of the Infidel's power
- The Presidential Palace -
And they would take out this obscene man
And all who stood by him.
'Democracy' the infidels called it.
Let them call it thus
And carp at the virtue of 'elections'.
Elections were fallible.
And now things had to be put right.
He had chosen his team well.
While others might quake at the magnitude
Of their mission, they would not flinch.
They boarded the aircraft carrying with them the hopes of all true
believers.
They had the support, too, of powerful friends abroad,
Of a courageous foreign government that supported their cause,
Equipped them, trained them, and put up cash.
And when victory was won and the revolution complete
It would recognise them, and give them honour.
To it, too, must go the glory.
The plan was meticulous.
His destiny - and that of his colleagues - was in his own hands.
Flying low, he turned the aircraft towards the capital
And prayed his aim would be true.
* * *
The attack succeeded.
The President, given warning by developments elsewhere,
Chose to stay in his residence and dared them do their worst.
He was dead by evening. His regime - like his palace - rubble
around
him.
He made a final broadcast to the nation. Here is part of what he
said:
"This is surely the last opportunity I will have to address you...
With my life I will pay for defending the principles
Dear to our nation.these are my last words".
And so they were. On September 11 1973
Salvador Allende, President of Chile died,
Refusing to flee an air attack on the Presidential Palace.
His murderers, a military putsch supported by the government of the
United States,
Overthrew the democratically-elected government
And established a rein of terror that saw thousands murdered.
Thus did the date September 11
First associate terror with the United States.
==========
Wednesday, September 11, 2002
it's wednesday - september 11.
which means it's members only night at the gym tonight where casual goers to
the gym are NOT allowed to enter - ahhh feels like i'm in a very exclusive
club, then i realise that it's just my local leisure centre with a gym, but
like they say, ignorance is bliss, but who are "they"? Why is it that
whenever "they" say something, it's more or less correct? go figure...
isn't it great when you can make someone happy - next best thing to being happy yourself.
which means it's members only night at the gym tonight where casual goers to
the gym are NOT allowed to enter - ahhh feels like i'm in a very exclusive
club, then i realise that it's just my local leisure centre with a gym, but
like they say, ignorance is bliss, but who are "they"? Why is it that
whenever "they" say something, it's more or less correct? go figure...
isn't it great when you can make someone happy - next best thing to being happy yourself.
Saturday, September 07, 2002
went to the bulldogs final match tonight... i'm not an avid fan of rugby league, let alone trying to cheer for the doggies tonight, but it was all worth while when we got our tickets for $10 instead of the usual $25.
i now know why people go to watch these games live, tv had nothing that even comes close, it's something that you'll need to experience for yourself, words cannot even begin to explain it.
i now know why people go to watch these games live, tv had nothing that even comes close, it's something that you'll need to experience for yourself, words cannot even begin to explain it.
Sunday, September 01, 2002
anne's birthday get together was fun, slaved away all day over the stove to make two measly dishes, thai red curry and the gourmet potato salad - i'm proud of myself i am.
everyone pretty much got together at around 6ish - food was good.
desert comprised of various flavoured ice cream - ly chee, durian, jack fruit, cookies & cream and good ol' vanilla.
watched "the late show" on dvd then we brought on PICTIONARY - as good as i am =) couldn't save my team from losing, ended up coming 3rd out of 4 teams ... oh well.
myle was pissed at me - at the time i didn't know what it was about - but all is good now =)
***
had steamboat at anthony's new place at parra today, all in all a pretty good day, was pretty lazy arsed today, managed to take my dad out for a father's day lunch though, came home took a nap then headed down to anth's place.
anne dropped over at anth's place as well - she didn't look too well, mild case of food poisoning - she didn't stay for long - walked her back to her car.
met myle's cousin from london - kim.
now i'm just knackered - bloody work tomorrow - why oh why?!?!
everyone pretty much got together at around 6ish - food was good.
desert comprised of various flavoured ice cream - ly chee, durian, jack fruit, cookies & cream and good ol' vanilla.
watched "the late show" on dvd then we brought on PICTIONARY - as good as i am =) couldn't save my team from losing, ended up coming 3rd out of 4 teams ... oh well.
myle was pissed at me - at the time i didn't know what it was about - but all is good now =)
***
had steamboat at anthony's new place at parra today, all in all a pretty good day, was pretty lazy arsed today, managed to take my dad out for a father's day lunch though, came home took a nap then headed down to anth's place.
anne dropped over at anth's place as well - she didn't look too well, mild case of food poisoning - she didn't stay for long - walked her back to her car.
met myle's cousin from london - kim.
now i'm just knackered - bloody work tomorrow - why oh why?!?!
Saturday, August 31, 2002
the card
"hello, hello, hello...
well, well, well...
TWENTY FOUR now are we? wiser? don't think so =) but less naive? definately.
we don't know what the future holds, but i HOPE that each of the next three hundred and sixty five days of your life are filled with new and exciting possibilities - until then enjoy yourself and the rest of the day.
oh yeah, before i forget.
Happy Birthday!!"
"hello, hello, hello...
well, well, well...
TWENTY FOUR now are we? wiser? don't think so =) but less naive? definately.
we don't know what the future holds, but i HOPE that each of the next three hundred and sixty five days of your life are filled with new and exciting possibilities - until then enjoy yourself and the rest of the day.
oh yeah, before i forget.
Happy Birthday!!"
Thursday, August 29, 2002
it was the twenty fourth day of the eigth month... five days earlier...
it's quarter past twelve - i said farewell to my friend and made my way to her house, i called her, i said i'll be there soon, she said cool.
i arrived at her place shortly after, open up my boot and pulled out the bouquet of hi-lighters i had arranged earlier in the day - she came out and before any words were spoken her eyes lit up from the sight of the hi-lighters - we left it at her front door and continued on our merry way.
i didn't know where we were going, she directed me, turn right here, go to the end of the street, then left, go straight past the lights and make a left - we finally got to where she intended on taking me - now find parking she said - so i did.
we found our lunch spot - laos/thai - we ordered a couple of dishes enjoyed the cosy atmosphere the store had provided, there wasn't many people there, nervous at first, but it got comfortable by the second.
she said that this was the first of three destinations - i said you're not gonna drag me out to some desert and before i know shoot me in the back are you? - she said there aren't any deserts around here - and laughed it off...
we finished most of the food and she insisted on paying - and she did, grabbed our after meal mints (minties) and walked around the block to see if there was anything interesting to see - we found a cheap cd store, the signs were made of cheap cardboard written in poor handwriting... regardless, we ventured into the store, she ended up buying a cd - atomic kitten - their latest single (as at twenty four / eight / zero two)
we made our way back to the car conversing about meaningless nothing - nothing important enough for me to remember...
started the engine and we were off again, she guided me to the next destination, 15 minutes later we ended up at a recreational park, families having a nice saturday afternoon barbeque, men, women and children pushing their canoes into the lake just before paddling off into the distance.
after walking around for ten minutes we found ourselves a nice patch of grass, sat down and soaked up some sun rays, it was a good day. she had an objective that day, she had something tell me, from our previous conversations i've deducted that it was going to be good news.
she started : i brought you out here to tell you something - yes? but you're hiding behind your sunnies, i can't see your eyes - you want to see my eyes? - yes.
she pulled her sunnies off and dropped them onto the soft grass we were laying on, she was laying on her stomach, before she continued she uttered - my arse is burning - i said, sit up then, and make me some shade - we laughed that off as well and she continued with what she had to tell me.
it was good news, but it wasn't what i was hoping for, i was content, very content, in fact after telling what i had said six days earlier, which was a first in the entirety of my life.
she had partially reciprocated what i had told her, but there was a 'but' - it wasn't a bad 'but' where you'd expect a total opposing point to the initial statement, it was more of a compromising 'but' .
we soaked up some more sun rays got up, brushed our backsides to rid the grass that attached themselves to our jeans when we were least expected - walked to the car and continued to our third destination.
i just wanted to write about the first two thirds of the day, it was a defining day, cleared out most of the cob webs that hung over me for the last week.
i just want to say, let me know whenever you're comfortable.
it's quarter past twelve - i said farewell to my friend and made my way to her house, i called her, i said i'll be there soon, she said cool.
i arrived at her place shortly after, open up my boot and pulled out the bouquet of hi-lighters i had arranged earlier in the day - she came out and before any words were spoken her eyes lit up from the sight of the hi-lighters - we left it at her front door and continued on our merry way.
i didn't know where we were going, she directed me, turn right here, go to the end of the street, then left, go straight past the lights and make a left - we finally got to where she intended on taking me - now find parking she said - so i did.
we found our lunch spot - laos/thai - we ordered a couple of dishes enjoyed the cosy atmosphere the store had provided, there wasn't many people there, nervous at first, but it got comfortable by the second.
she said that this was the first of three destinations - i said you're not gonna drag me out to some desert and before i know shoot me in the back are you? - she said there aren't any deserts around here - and laughed it off...
we finished most of the food and she insisted on paying - and she did, grabbed our after meal mints (minties) and walked around the block to see if there was anything interesting to see - we found a cheap cd store, the signs were made of cheap cardboard written in poor handwriting... regardless, we ventured into the store, she ended up buying a cd - atomic kitten - their latest single (as at twenty four / eight / zero two)
we made our way back to the car conversing about meaningless nothing - nothing important enough for me to remember...
started the engine and we were off again, she guided me to the next destination, 15 minutes later we ended up at a recreational park, families having a nice saturday afternoon barbeque, men, women and children pushing their canoes into the lake just before paddling off into the distance.
after walking around for ten minutes we found ourselves a nice patch of grass, sat down and soaked up some sun rays, it was a good day. she had an objective that day, she had something tell me, from our previous conversations i've deducted that it was going to be good news.
she started : i brought you out here to tell you something - yes? but you're hiding behind your sunnies, i can't see your eyes - you want to see my eyes? - yes.
she pulled her sunnies off and dropped them onto the soft grass we were laying on, she was laying on her stomach, before she continued she uttered - my arse is burning - i said, sit up then, and make me some shade - we laughed that off as well and she continued with what she had to tell me.
it was good news, but it wasn't what i was hoping for, i was content, very content, in fact after telling what i had said six days earlier, which was a first in the entirety of my life.
she had partially reciprocated what i had told her, but there was a 'but' - it wasn't a bad 'but' where you'd expect a total opposing point to the initial statement, it was more of a compromising 'but' .
we soaked up some more sun rays got up, brushed our backsides to rid the grass that attached themselves to our jeans when we were least expected - walked to the car and continued to our third destination.
i just wanted to write about the first two thirds of the day, it was a defining day, cleared out most of the cob webs that hung over me for the last week.
i just want to say, let me know whenever you're comfortable.
Sunday, August 25, 2002
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i didn't intend on writing, but ...... nevermind ....
went to natalie's 21st tonight - gee it was cold - glad i'm home with my heater on full blast, thinking happy thoughts while typing up this entry and nodding off at the same time.
something unusual happened today, i picked her up at quarter past twelve today, i gave her the bouquet of hi-lighters i got from work, she was taken back by how many i got her.
- thai for lunch
- park for a talk
- country fair aka paddy's market for the rest of the day
it was good, it was different, it got me thinking, she says she likes me, but she doesn't want to rush into things, i didn't know what to say, i'm obviously happy...
i'm just so run down at the moment that i haven't taken the time out to think about what's going to happen in the next few weeks, i really don't know.
went to natalie's 21st tonight - gee it was cold - glad i'm home with my heater on full blast, thinking happy thoughts while typing up this entry and nodding off at the same time.
something unusual happened today, i picked her up at quarter past twelve today, i gave her the bouquet of hi-lighters i got from work, she was taken back by how many i got her.
- thai for lunch
- park for a talk
- country fair aka paddy's market for the rest of the day
it was good, it was different, it got me thinking, she says she likes me, but she doesn't want to rush into things, i didn't know what to say, i'm obviously happy...
i'm just so run down at the moment that i haven't taken the time out to think about what's going to happen in the next few weeks, i really don't know.
Saturday, August 24, 2002
Friday, August 23, 2002
my current state of mind - bit tired, feeling pretty good, i'm seeing her tomorrow, she wants to talk - serious talk, we've never spoken on a serious note in person before, all our serious conversations take place during our phone calls - funny that.
i was geared up to having drinks and good company tonight - but everyone's got their own agenda, everyone's busy these days, everyone's paving their own lives - why did i even mention this...
honestly, i crave attention, a lot of attention but in subtle ways - maybe it's just a manifestation of my insecurities - ok, enough of this crap.
i'm staring off into space thinking about what to write about, i had a lot to write about today at work, i thought i'd leave it til i get home, now i don't know what's going on, finished work, headed down to the cargo bar to meet jemaine, then caught the train home with jemaine and brandan, headed over to brandan's place for some food, sat down with a nice cuppa tea and watched the knights vs broncos game - knights smashed them, 40 - 10.
i'm tired.
i have no substance.
i'm gonna read someone elses blog, maybe they've got something more interesting to say.
i was geared up to having drinks and good company tonight - but everyone's got their own agenda, everyone's busy these days, everyone's paving their own lives - why did i even mention this...
honestly, i crave attention, a lot of attention but in subtle ways - maybe it's just a manifestation of my insecurities - ok, enough of this crap.
i'm staring off into space thinking about what to write about, i had a lot to write about today at work, i thought i'd leave it til i get home, now i don't know what's going on, finished work, headed down to the cargo bar to meet jemaine, then caught the train home with jemaine and brandan, headed over to brandan's place for some food, sat down with a nice cuppa tea and watched the knights vs broncos game - knights smashed them, 40 - 10.
i'm tired.
i have no substance.
i'm gonna read someone elses blog, maybe they've got something more interesting to say.
Tuesday, August 20, 2002
i could take a shower and goto sleep, but i wanted to write more about myself, hmmm - talking about myself twice in one night too much? nah, i don't do it all that often, and there's no harm, unless people who know me read this, and they know this blogger belongs to me - but WHATEVER, i have great friends, i'm sure they won't pass judgement based on what i write here...
i'm insecure at times, and it shows, i talk about my feelings alot and more often than not there's no resolve, "circular conversation" is the term i use loosely.
i adapt and apply other people's concepts to my life, i make a conscious effort to listen to my thoughts when i have second to myself, mostly during lunch, i usually have it by myself, cos nobody else has lunch at 3pm - i'm doing very tedious accounting work at a bank that doesn't value their staff, i try hard, i put a lot of effort in my work, i try to keep people happy, people in my immediate area anyway. i'm normally a pretty up tempo, cheerful happy person, it's only of late that i'm in this 'gloom' mood. mostly cos of the direction, or lack thereof, my career is going, then little 'obstacles' in my personal life.
i usually write in small short sentences, it makes you sound more sophisticated, but there's no one here i want to impress - so that who idea can just go out the window.
i'm tired, i ought to jump into bed and get some rest - but i want to still write - about nothing and mostly myself.
we have a small family here in sydney, we moved from adelaide in '86 - i have a few aunts and uncles in sydney - they have lots of kids now - they're my little cousins - there are lots of them - they're like a plague - that's an awful word, an awful word to describe my cousins with, but they're still very young, they will never find this journal, they're annoying though, that's why they're a plague.
someone just pulled up on our drive way - best bet it's one of my aunts/uncles - i can just make out their head lights through my shutters - they left - they dropped my mum off.
i was at a birthday party earlier in the evening - it was an old lady - an old lady i call grandma - she's not exactly my grandma, but everyone calls her that, because she's old, she's really old - close to 80 i reckon. i feel rather guilty, my parents asked me to go - i went to have some food, spoke to a few people and headed back home - the party was a 2 minute drive from my place, i don't feel so guilty anymore, i'm so tired i couldn't really give a toss.
i think my sentences are too long, but no body cares, i use a lot of commas though, that should make up for it? i don't think so, bad grammar is bad grammar - i did mention that i was a poor writer - you can see why.
there are a few good things i can say about myself though, i can safely say i'm pretty good in many sporting activities. basketball, tennis *thinking* pool, pretty strong swimmer and i can run pretty well.
my room's in a mess at the moment, my study table is packed with miscellaneous items:
- water spray
- 1 litre tub of moisturising cream
- a bouquet of hi-lighters
- 4 post it note pads stacked on top of the hi-lighters
- 3 books (fellowship of the ring & the two towers) an interior design book.
- 2 cans of deoderant
i'm a collector of crap - my book shelf doesn't have many books, there's an assortment of display items, some cologne, candles, a tray of crap.
wow - an entry of crap - i went off track again - i need to focus, i wanted to write about myself, ended up listing the things on my desk and bookshelf.
i'm insecure at times, and it shows, i talk about my feelings alot and more often than not there's no resolve, "circular conversation" is the term i use loosely.
i adapt and apply other people's concepts to my life, i make a conscious effort to listen to my thoughts when i have second to myself, mostly during lunch, i usually have it by myself, cos nobody else has lunch at 3pm - i'm doing very tedious accounting work at a bank that doesn't value their staff, i try hard, i put a lot of effort in my work, i try to keep people happy, people in my immediate area anyway. i'm normally a pretty up tempo, cheerful happy person, it's only of late that i'm in this 'gloom' mood. mostly cos of the direction, or lack thereof, my career is going, then little 'obstacles' in my personal life.
i usually write in small short sentences, it makes you sound more sophisticated, but there's no one here i want to impress - so that who idea can just go out the window.
i'm tired, i ought to jump into bed and get some rest - but i want to still write - about nothing and mostly myself.
we have a small family here in sydney, we moved from adelaide in '86 - i have a few aunts and uncles in sydney - they have lots of kids now - they're my little cousins - there are lots of them - they're like a plague - that's an awful word, an awful word to describe my cousins with, but they're still very young, they will never find this journal, they're annoying though, that's why they're a plague.
someone just pulled up on our drive way - best bet it's one of my aunts/uncles - i can just make out their head lights through my shutters - they left - they dropped my mum off.
i was at a birthday party earlier in the evening - it was an old lady - an old lady i call grandma - she's not exactly my grandma, but everyone calls her that, because she's old, she's really old - close to 80 i reckon. i feel rather guilty, my parents asked me to go - i went to have some food, spoke to a few people and headed back home - the party was a 2 minute drive from my place, i don't feel so guilty anymore, i'm so tired i couldn't really give a toss.
i think my sentences are too long, but no body cares, i use a lot of commas though, that should make up for it? i don't think so, bad grammar is bad grammar - i did mention that i was a poor writer - you can see why.
there are a few good things i can say about myself though, i can safely say i'm pretty good in many sporting activities. basketball, tennis *thinking* pool, pretty strong swimmer and i can run pretty well.
my room's in a mess at the moment, my study table is packed with miscellaneous items:
- water spray
- 1 litre tub of moisturising cream
- a bouquet of hi-lighters
- 4 post it note pads stacked on top of the hi-lighters
- 3 books (fellowship of the ring & the two towers) an interior design book.
- 2 cans of deoderant
i'm a collector of crap - my book shelf doesn't have many books, there's an assortment of display items, some cologne, candles, a tray of crap.
wow - an entry of crap - i went off track again - i need to focus, i wanted to write about myself, ended up listing the things on my desk and bookshelf.
today, i realised the true meaning of the word "routine", as it stands, my
life is like "ground hog day" playing on repeat mode.
i have lunch almost exactly the same time, walk through the same malls, on most days, i have the same lunch, only because everything else is rather unhealthy and after lunch, i go window shopping in exactly the same stores.
i struggle to remember what goes through my head during my lunches, it's the only time i have to myself.
i'm off in a daze when i'm strolling through GBs.
i want to buy that dvd, but when would i watch it?
i'm wearing my suit, i feel rather confident, my light blue shirt and my somewhat checkered tie. i glance at people as if they are below me, that's not true though.
i search for a gift, for a friend, she's turning 24. i see a filofax, it's in a glass cabinet, i can't see the price, but i know it's pricey, it's brown, leather, some parts suede.
i won't buy it today, perhaps tomorrow, i said that yesterday as well.
it's nearly 3:30, i make my way back to the office, as i approach the front door i see chris, he's going to get some food, gee - that's a late lunch, no - i was wrong, he went to the gym during his lunch hour, he just needs some food now, fair enough.
i sip my low fat milk, i'm lactose intolerant, i like milk, it's low fat, but not skim, skim is kinda gross.
lactose intolerant, i'm not certain though, but my stomach makes alien like noises after drinking - i guess that's what lactose intolerance means, i'm probably wrong again, sometimes when i drink too much i need to use the bathroom.
i want to glorify myself, i thinner now, but i don't have abs, all of a sudden i don't have anything to write about, i could have said the same thing at the beginning of this entry, did i spell beginning right? hope so, i did, i just ran a spell check on it, i think faster than i type, that's why i'm never a good writer, it sounds right in my head, but when i translate what goes on in my head through my fingertips and onto this computer screen, a lot of it is just plain gibberish.
i just remembered i owe my friend $110 - i haven't forgotten, i ought to pay him back, i don't have music playing either, i usually do.
i want to talk more about myself, but i don't know where to start, i'm sure i have a lot to say about myself, i'm sure i'm the best person to ask about myself, don't you think?
five for fighting's superman is playing at the moment.
my friend's sister's friend just messaged me on msn - i'm going to say hello.
this is the end of my entry. more about myself in my next post
life is like "ground hog day" playing on repeat mode.
i have lunch almost exactly the same time, walk through the same malls, on most days, i have the same lunch, only because everything else is rather unhealthy and after lunch, i go window shopping in exactly the same stores.
i struggle to remember what goes through my head during my lunches, it's the only time i have to myself.
i'm off in a daze when i'm strolling through GBs.
i want to buy that dvd, but when would i watch it?
i'm wearing my suit, i feel rather confident, my light blue shirt and my somewhat checkered tie. i glance at people as if they are below me, that's not true though.
i search for a gift, for a friend, she's turning 24. i see a filofax, it's in a glass cabinet, i can't see the price, but i know it's pricey, it's brown, leather, some parts suede.
i won't buy it today, perhaps tomorrow, i said that yesterday as well.
it's nearly 3:30, i make my way back to the office, as i approach the front door i see chris, he's going to get some food, gee - that's a late lunch, no - i was wrong, he went to the gym during his lunch hour, he just needs some food now, fair enough.
i sip my low fat milk, i'm lactose intolerant, i like milk, it's low fat, but not skim, skim is kinda gross.
lactose intolerant, i'm not certain though, but my stomach makes alien like noises after drinking - i guess that's what lactose intolerance means, i'm probably wrong again, sometimes when i drink too much i need to use the bathroom.
i want to glorify myself, i thinner now, but i don't have abs, all of a sudden i don't have anything to write about, i could have said the same thing at the beginning of this entry, did i spell beginning right? hope so, i did, i just ran a spell check on it, i think faster than i type, that's why i'm never a good writer, it sounds right in my head, but when i translate what goes on in my head through my fingertips and onto this computer screen, a lot of it is just plain gibberish.
i just remembered i owe my friend $110 - i haven't forgotten, i ought to pay him back, i don't have music playing either, i usually do.
i want to talk more about myself, but i don't know where to start, i'm sure i have a lot to say about myself, i'm sure i'm the best person to ask about myself, don't you think?
five for fighting's superman is playing at the moment.
my friend's sister's friend just messaged me on msn - i'm going to say hello.
this is the end of my entry. more about myself in my next post
Monday, August 19, 2002
i was never a good writer.
no writing skills whatsoever, i'm asian who happens to speak english quite well.
i read other people's blogger, sometimes i can't understand how talented they are, although they appear very modest.
i should read some more, it might help.
i'm going to make a banner for the top of my blogger now - i know it's gonna turn out rather crap.
i don't know why i even bothered setting up a comments link - no one comes here.
no writing skills whatsoever, i'm asian who happens to speak english quite well.
i read other people's blogger, sometimes i can't understand how talented they are, although they appear very modest.
i should read some more, it might help.
i'm going to make a banner for the top of my blogger now - i know it's gonna turn out rather crap.
i don't know why i even bothered setting up a comments link - no one comes here.
Saturday, August 10, 2002
Desiderata
(something desired as essential)
Go placidly amid the noise and the haste, and remember
what peace there may be in silence.
As far as possible, without surrender, be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to the dull and ignorant; they too have their story.
Avoid loud and aggressive persons; they are vexations to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain or bitter,
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.
Keep interested in your career, however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
Exercise caution in your business affairs, for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals and everywhere life is full of heroism.
Be yourself. Especially do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love; for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment,
it is as perennial as the grass.
Take kindly the counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.
Beyond a wholesome discipline be gentle to yourself.
You are a child of the universe,
no less than the trees and the stars and you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.
Therefore, be at peace with God, whatever you conceive Him to be.
And whatever your labors and aspirations,
in the noisy confusion of life, keep peace with your soul.
With all its sham, drudgery and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful. Strive to be happy.
--Max Ehrmann, 1927. © Robert L. Bell
(something desired as essential)
Go placidly amid the noise and the haste, and remember
what peace there may be in silence.
As far as possible, without surrender, be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to the dull and ignorant; they too have their story.
Avoid loud and aggressive persons; they are vexations to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain or bitter,
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.
Keep interested in your career, however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
Exercise caution in your business affairs, for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals and everywhere life is full of heroism.
Be yourself. Especially do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love; for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment,
it is as perennial as the grass.
Take kindly the counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.
Beyond a wholesome discipline be gentle to yourself.
You are a child of the universe,
no less than the trees and the stars and you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.
Therefore, be at peace with God, whatever you conceive Him to be.
And whatever your labors and aspirations,
in the noisy confusion of life, keep peace with your soul.
With all its sham, drudgery and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful. Strive to be happy.
--Max Ehrmann, 1927. © Robert L. Bell
Friday, June 28, 2002
hi all, i took a personality test over at http://www.haleonline.com/psych/index.htm it's only 4 questions long - most parts are quite true, i don't know, judge for yourself.
here's mine anyways:
ENFP
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What's there to say about you? You're an initiator of change and are keenly in tune to possibilities... you're enthusiastic, and it's contagious...you're tireless in the pursuit of newfound interests... You can anticipate the needs of others, and offer them needed help and appreciation. You bring zest, livelihood, and fun to all aspects of your life...
You're agreeable, sociable, outgoing and like to imagine yourself in the future... who will you marry? what type of work will you do? where will you live? All questions you ask yourself...you like to keep your options open...you're imaginative...curious...you prefer to understand than judge..
You see endless possibilities. You hate to be boxed into anything -- like a career -- for life...so you hesitate and resist making decisions...always look for new and novel...
You like a learning environment where the teacher takes a personal interest in you...You're motto might be: "There's always a better way or a better answer.."... when you're committed to something, you are enthusiastic to the point of preaching to the whole world about it (...like the Storm Palace?)
Your style of organization is... well, personalized. Others don't really see you as organized, though, do they? YOU know what's where, and there's a "method to your madness," huh?
You have a hard time separating work from leisure, since you have fun while you work. You're always on the lookout for new things... you like learning with others, so you'll invite 'em to join you at films, plays and classes.
When you fall in love, you study the other person in every way. The one you fall in love with is "the best ever" a lot, huh? Sheesh. But others feel unconditionally loved by you ....you fall head over heels and get in love FAST. You are charming...full of vitality...you treat others with sympathy, gentleness, and warmth...
Last part: watch out for losing your focus 'cause you wanna try too many ideas at the same time... you don't prioritize, so you can overload...also, because you're just a fun-loving animal, you might not complete important work and basic responsibilities...
ENFP: "Every day, New Fantastic Possibilities"
here's mine anyways:
ENFP
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What's there to say about you? You're an initiator of change and are keenly in tune to possibilities... you're enthusiastic, and it's contagious...you're tireless in the pursuit of newfound interests... You can anticipate the needs of others, and offer them needed help and appreciation. You bring zest, livelihood, and fun to all aspects of your life...
You're agreeable, sociable, outgoing and like to imagine yourself in the future... who will you marry? what type of work will you do? where will you live? All questions you ask yourself...you like to keep your options open...you're imaginative...curious...you prefer to understand than judge..
You see endless possibilities. You hate to be boxed into anything -- like a career -- for life...so you hesitate and resist making decisions...always look for new and novel...
You like a learning environment where the teacher takes a personal interest in you...You're motto might be: "There's always a better way or a better answer.."... when you're committed to something, you are enthusiastic to the point of preaching to the whole world about it (...like the Storm Palace?)
Your style of organization is... well, personalized. Others don't really see you as organized, though, do they? YOU know what's where, and there's a "method to your madness," huh?
You have a hard time separating work from leisure, since you have fun while you work. You're always on the lookout for new things... you like learning with others, so you'll invite 'em to join you at films, plays and classes.
When you fall in love, you study the other person in every way. The one you fall in love with is "the best ever" a lot, huh? Sheesh. But others feel unconditionally loved by you ....you fall head over heels and get in love FAST. You are charming...full of vitality...you treat others with sympathy, gentleness, and warmth...
Last part: watch out for losing your focus 'cause you wanna try too many ideas at the same time... you don't prioritize, so you can overload...also, because you're just a fun-loving animal, you might not complete important work and basic responsibilities...
ENFP: "Every day, New Fantastic Possibilities"
Sunday, June 23, 2002
i like vanessa carlton's one thousand miles so much i've decided to stick the lyrics here =)
Making my way down town
Walking fast
Faces pass
And I'm home bound
Staring blankly ahead
Just making my way
Making a way
Through the crowd
And I need you
And I miss you
And now I wonder
If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass me by
Cause you know I'd walk a thousand miles
If I could just see you... tonight
It's always times like these
When I think of you
And I wonder
If you ever think of me
Cause everything's so wrong
And I don't belong
Living in
Your precious memory
Cause I need you
And I miss you
And now I wonder
If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass me by,oh
Cause you know I'd walk a thousand miles
If I could just see you... tonight
And I, I don't wanna let you know
I, I drown in your memory
I,I don't wanna let this go
I, I've fallen...
Making my way down town
Waking fast
Faces pass
And I'm home bound
Staring blankly ahead
Making my way
Making a way
Through the crowd
And I still need you
And I still miss you
And now I wonder
If I could fall into the sky
Do you think time, would pass us by
Cause you know I'd walk a thousand miles
If I could just see you...
If I could fall into the sky
Do you think time would pass me by
Cause you know I'd walk a thousand miles
If I could just see you...
If I could just hold you... tonight
Making my way down town
Walking fast
Faces pass
And I'm home bound
Staring blankly ahead
Just making my way
Making a way
Through the crowd
And I need you
And I miss you
And now I wonder
If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass me by
Cause you know I'd walk a thousand miles
If I could just see you... tonight
It's always times like these
When I think of you
And I wonder
If you ever think of me
Cause everything's so wrong
And I don't belong
Living in
Your precious memory
Cause I need you
And I miss you
And now I wonder
If I could fall
Into the sky
Do you think time
Would pass me by,oh
Cause you know I'd walk a thousand miles
If I could just see you... tonight
And I, I don't wanna let you know
I, I drown in your memory
I,I don't wanna let this go
I, I've fallen...
Making my way down town
Waking fast
Faces pass
And I'm home bound
Staring blankly ahead
Making my way
Making a way
Through the crowd
And I still need you
And I still miss you
And now I wonder
If I could fall into the sky
Do you think time, would pass us by
Cause you know I'd walk a thousand miles
If I could just see you...
If I could fall into the sky
Do you think time would pass me by
Cause you know I'd walk a thousand miles
If I could just see you...
If I could just hold you... tonight
Saturday, June 22, 2002
Monday, June 03, 2002
Friday, May 31, 2002
it's friday night, it's cold and i have absolutely nothing to do, nowhere to go and no-one to call =( got bored of the click-click game aka diablo2 and ra3 got boring after 20 minutes of it.
*sigh* what am i to do? it's only 10:40!! =((((
call someone? bring over a video? catch up?
i just remembered why a part of me chose to stay home, car regos coming up + insurance - fucken hell!!!
<--- in other news -->
i just realised how old i'm getting when my friends got engaged the other week, i can just feel the wrinkles forming around my eyes, not good, and i don't want to end up choosing a bride in a south east asian country.
one more thing - i'm sure this comes up all the time - it annoys me a lot but i don't mind people with high self confidence, but when it gets to a stage where it's painfully obvious that it makes them look like they're up themselves....bleh!! fags aghghaghahgahaghgaha
*sigh* what am i to do? it's only 10:40!! =((((
call someone? bring over a video? catch up?
i just remembered why a part of me chose to stay home, car regos coming up + insurance - fucken hell!!!
<--- in other news -->
i just realised how old i'm getting when my friends got engaged the other week, i can just feel the wrinkles forming around my eyes, not good, and i don't want to end up choosing a bride in a south east asian country.
one more thing - i'm sure this comes up all the time - it annoys me a lot but i don't mind people with high self confidence, but when it gets to a stage where it's painfully obvious that it makes them look like they're up themselves....bleh!! fags aghghaghahgahaghgaha
it's been pretty slow going these days, new manager's being a dick, actually he's always been one so either i'll have to live with it or find a new job.
haven't been to the gym as regularly as i've wished to, only because the weather suck so bad at the moment - i hate the cold, could never really get use to it - even when i have several layers of clothing on and end up looking like the michelin man i still freeze my arse off, and winter's only about to begin, can't wait 'til end of aug when it gets bit warmer.
i've also ceased my 20 minute jogs i use to do 4 days a week - i should really ought to get back into it - the sydney city to surf is coming up soon and i promised my friend i'd run in it with him - so out of form at the moment, damn the coldnessness!!!!
haven't been to the gym as regularly as i've wished to, only because the weather suck so bad at the moment - i hate the cold, could never really get use to it - even when i have several layers of clothing on and end up looking like the michelin man i still freeze my arse off, and winter's only about to begin, can't wait 'til end of aug when it gets bit warmer.
i've also ceased my 20 minute jogs i use to do 4 days a week - i should really ought to get back into it - the sydney city to surf is coming up soon and i promised my friend i'd run in it with him - so out of form at the moment, damn the coldnessness!!!!
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